Death row, next in line speaking

Writer's Block: Raincheck!

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 15:51:25 GMT

It really isn't my place to forgive or forget unless I was specifically affected by it as well in which case I'd just pat my best friend on the back and tell him I think he's making a huge mistake but if it's what he wants I'll do my best to support him.

Away with me but in the end I shall arise from the ashes born anew

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 19:56:17 GMT

Bad news!

So here's what's going on. For everyone that's anyone whose been close to me or is at least interested in the stuff that I've posted online I've got some news. I received a call on Wednesday about possible deployment. I say possible because it may not happen but the "possibility" of that is very very little... as in like .0001% little.

I've decided it's within my best interest then to at least put this much up. If for any reason someone decides to look at this site because a) you've been directed here from my fanfiction site and or fictionpress b)deviantart or c) you know me and thought you'd check to see how I was doing there is a very specific reason why I may not be on anything for awhile and I have a very legitimate excuse this time other than sheer laziness.

As it is I still don't have confirmed news but I'd like to say thanks to anyone whose been with me. You're the best.

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 20:13:35 GMT

Isn't it interesting that in life we go for so long thinking about what it is we want to do that we tend to loose focus on what it is we can currently do in the meantime? I mean think about it... or not. It makes no difference to me. I'm just pointing something out or maybe I'm being too thoughtful.
I feel so lost right now lol. Maybe it applies to me more than anyone else. I need to spend more time finishing my stories and less time at school and work... especially work. Oh well. I'm almost finished with the first chapter of my redone Darkness fanfic. I hope it turns out better then it had been going. Hope.
As it is if anyone ever pops by and reads this stuff let me know what you think about life.

?1?

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 19:52:31 GMT

And after a long time I'm back. I'm currently working on a rewrite of my last couple fanfics. I hope to get through about halfway of Darkness before the end of the year so I should probably get my ass going. I've been really busy with the guards, work, and classes.

I look forward to people contacting me and letting me know what it is they want to see.

Updates and doodads

Mon, 14 May 2007 06:29:02 GMT

Its been awhile since I've been on. I hope everyone is doing well. I have recently begun updating my fanfictions again and I'll do my best to keep up on them as best as I can but ya gotta understand that fanfiction isn't my life. I will of course do my best to meet all of your expectations so please be kind to me but there are times where I go for long periods with no ideas and times where I suddenly become completely uninterested in writing. I know it's not fair to you guys that that happens and I'm doing my best but that is just the way I am so please don't be upset when I go for long periods without updating.

and now for some fun stuff

Which Loveless Character are you?

Your Ritsuka. Your very loved, but you find yourself questioning why. There is someone in your life, whether or not you know it, that would die for you.
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Kawaii! I'm a total Loveless fan *huggles Ritsuka* and I just love the poor little emo kitty.

Your Japanese Name Is...

Miya Saionji

What's your Japanese Name?

Now that is an interesting name. I could come to like it :D

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	7.2
Mind:	7
Body:	8.4
Spirit:	6.5
Friends/Family:	6.3
Love:	2
Finance:	6.6
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My love life sucks ne?

Your Heart Is Green

Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out.
When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life.

Your flirting style: Laid back

Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking

Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm

What you bring to relationships: Balance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

So it says but is it really that easy?

You Are The High Priestess

You represent mystery - secrets that are yet to be revealed.
You find yourself sitting between two worlds: one dark, one light.
You tend to hold these two worlds in balance, reconciling the two.
Open and welcoming, you invite others to learn your secrets.

Your fortune:

Something hidden, or latent, in your life is about to come forward.
You need to pay more attention to your dreams, thoughts, intuition, and imagination.
And if that involves tapping into your dark side, it will all balance out in the end.
You have a lot of potential dying to be unleashed, so let those gates open!

What Tarot Card Are You?

Kawaii! I'm a tarot card.

Okay that's all for today, but look for me again soon. I'll try to have a new update this next week... try.

Ja ne

The path to hell is often paved in good intentions

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 17:46:51 GMT

And so I reach my limit and wonder what it is that I'm supposed to do from here. Isn't it sad that as kids we can't wait to grow-up and as adults we wish we could go back? There are times when I wonder what was on my mind so long ago to wish for such foolish things, and yet not all of it has turned out to be quite horrible.
There is something about life and living that is just one whole mystery that will never really be solved. That's good I think, to have something that can't be solved in life, that can't be answered with numbers or science. At the same time it's also really frustrating because I know that I'd really love to have those answers whether they were in numbers or some extra-long scientific answer that in the end could have been summarized in 2-3 very plain english sentences.
It is my belief that finding a career is one of the saddest things in life that a person can go through. There are so many things that can be done, that we want to do, and yet we are limited by our short life span as humans. That is not to say that I wish I could live forever because I think that would be an even more sad thing. Seeing the world as it is today, I don't think I'd want to live long enough to see the end of it by the hands of people. That would be intolerable I believe. Besides eternity is too long and as a person goes through so much hell as it is in even one single life-time I can't even begin to imagine what they'd go through as a person with a never-ending existence.
That's a lie though. I can't imagine what they'd go through but I have an idea which I'm currently working on in a story of mine while putting everything else on the backburner. It's akward as of right now but it's the story of a race of beings that can live forever provided some circumstances and one that will never see the end.
I'm currently attached to one of my characters, Victor, because he's so admant about living life with a singular purpose and that is to find "the one", the beginning of his kind. There are times while working on it that I have to stop and find happier things to fill my mind with and better times because as far as I'm concerned living forever isn't all sun and joy. The thing about Victor though is he still takes the time to meet new people and forge relationships which most of his kind avoid knowing that the normal humans life-span is but the blink of an eye to their very long lived lives. He of course knows this, yet at the same time it's like he's trying to deny his true existence and play make-believe. At the spot I'm at right now he has in fact been playing make-believe for almost 10 years now after he meets a young man, Meich, who has a weak constitution. His life expectancy is about another 5 yrs if he's lucky.
Despite his denial of who he is, Victor for the most part has a large understanding of humans, himself (though he hates that very much), and the natural order of the world. He also realizes that his kind is breaking this natural order.
Sad isn't it? Your existence is a taboo. You are hunted day after day, year after year, by those who recognize who you are and what your existence could possibly mean for them. The chance at immortality.
Immortality itself though is something that should never be tried. If god wanted us to live forever he would have extended our life-spans. Things such as cloning, immortality, etc. should be left untouched. That is gods domain. There was something I was watching awhile back. An anime if you will where they are researching immortality. One of the characters is reluctant of the study and her superior says to her that if god is omnipotent he should have realized that people would one day search for this.
I do not agree. I think that god, be he real or fake, thought as I do. That immortality isn't worth the suffering and everything else you go through. Our lives, short as they may be, help us focus on what it is that makes us happy and live how we should. That is the way it is and that is the way it should stay.
...unless you're a vampire. Then by all means please continue to live on for awhile. I have an appreciation for the mythology of those beautiful creatures after all. So I'm biased but aren't we all?

College is the devil!

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 16:28:27 GMT

I had my first college experience yesterday and while the class itself wasn't too bad I found the worst thing was the books. The BOOKS man the BOOKS! How expensive can you get? If I didn't have my job plus my army drill pay I'm more than willing to bet I would have had to drop out the very first day. It was totally ridiculous. I mean come on now, what do they expect of some of us? We're only humans.... well some of us.
To say that this experience sux so far would be something of a lie. Like I said so far it hasn't been too bad, two out of my four professors so far have proven to be not too bad and although I have yet to meet my other two professors I don't think it'll get too much worse....
I'll be meeting my one professor on Monday because she is currently away so I didn't have that class today and I won't have it on Friday. My other professor which is my next class later this evening hopefully won't be too bad either. It is after all a math class. How bad could it get?
I do have to say though that the best thing so far is the laptops and the super high-speed internet connections they get here. It's fantastic. Well ja ne.

O.o
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"We had a falling out of sorts."
"What kind of falling out?"
"The kind that happens from a the top of a five story building."
"Oh....ouch!"

Happy New Year Ya'll!!

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 05:42:01 GMT

Happy New Year everyone! This year has been so exciting, between graduating from high school, leaving this summer for Basic and AIT and everything else in between it's been one hectic but quite enjoyable mess. Without this mess I wouldn't have made some of the friends I have such as my two brothers from training, my crazy but extremely lovable Stuffing friend, and everyone else who made training survivable.
I wish everyone the best and hope that 2006 was as good for you as it was for me and 2007 will be just as good. Take care all.

O.o
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"We had a falling out of sorts."
"What kind of falling out?"
"The kind that happens from a the top of a five story building."
"Oh....ouch!"

I'm Back....

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 22:56:34 GMT

Hey everyone! I'm back and causing everyone within close vicinity to suffer... It's a good thing I swear...
Actually I've been back for a month now but just finally sat myself down to update my journal. Man I've been gone for a long time. It's kinda sad, since I've returned home I've learned a lot of my friends are engaged, pregnant or leaving. It was a bit of a depressing return.
Since my return home though I've been busy, my sister has been helping me set up a myspace which is taking me a bit of time cuz I can't say I like it anywhere near as much as I like my journal here.
What can I say? I'm back although I can't say I'm happy about it all the time I'm still happy but oddly enough I miss the people I was training with and having a set schedule... for the most part...to live off of. I guess since I've been home I'm a bit more unsociable but well I just don't know what to do with myself. I've been drowing myself in work and stay in my room a lot. My best friend left last week for her own basic and AIT so now I'm more bored than usual. Thankfully school starts on Jan. 16 for me as long as I can get the classes I can get. I'm kinda annoyed because registration for freshmen isn't until the 12... four days before classes begin! How dumb can they be?
I'm so annoyed it's amazing.
Anyway I'd like to thank those of you who sent me letters while I was away to cheer me up because they did tons of good by the way "fyreflies" I'm a fan of your work. You're the greatest. Thanx for dropping a line. :D
By the way I had such a fantastic day today you wouldn't believe it. I got all my christmas shopping done and even climbed a bluff at the end of it lol. It was a good day for me.

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 18:38:52 GMT

Heyla, I'm leaving Wednesday so this is most likely my last post until I return sometime in November. I'm sorry to all of my fanfiction readers that I won't be posting for a while but this time I really do have a good excuse, I'm going off to boot camp. Also for my fictionpress from which I have no readers or anyone interested in my stuff currently if any of you do stumble into my stuff and wonder why there is nothing else this is why. I'm gone. Sorry about that but I'm sure you'll find it in yourselves to forgive me. I promise after I return that I will sit down in front of my computer for days if I have to so that I can get new updates up for you guys. I swear it, but just please give me some time. Take care all and enjoy your summer.

So long

Sun, 28 May 2006 23:30:13 GMT

I'm not sure when I'll be getting on next so if I'm not able to get on before June 20th I'll at least leave this for you people that care about me...somewhat. As of June 20th I have to be in the Twin Cities to go to MEPS so that I can leave for basic. That's not so bad but as it is I'll also be doing my AIT right away too so I won't be back until late November if I'm lucky.
To update I graduated on May 20th, went to state for Solo-ensemble and got a silver, and have been reading a lot of manga and watching a lot of anime. I have to get my fill before I leave for five months.
I swear I'm going to die without being able to read as much as I want for five months, write, listen to music, or watch some of my shows.... I'm doomed. XD..... anywho I just want to thank those that have supported me up until this point and when I get back I'll contact you ASAP to let you know I'm still alive... (if you don't hear from me it probably means I'm not alive lol)
As it is thank you and I can't wait to contact you all again and hear from you. I'm kinda scared about this summer but I'm also really excited about the adventures I'm going to have and all the cool things I'll get to do. I can't wait. TTYL.

=^.^=

Such is life

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 13:06:20 GMT

Saturday night after work I was with my best friend who I don't see as much as I wish I did sometimes and we ended up watching movies/anime until two in the morning. It was so much fun. We watched Serenity, Loveless disc 2, Howl's Moving Castle, and Gestalt which was fricken amusing for lack of better words.
Man I've been so fricken busy lately I feel kinda bad about it. Who would have thought my senior year would be so hectic? It's fricken unbelievable. I feel like I have no freetime anymore and it totally sux and the only time that freetime exists is when I don't work and I have no homework... which isn't often. *sigh* I'm looking towards the end of the school year, kinda, sorta... not really... I think. I don't know I'm kinda lost. This summer I leave for five months for basic and a really good friend of mine is pregnant and she'll have the kid while I'm gone. I kinda want to be here when it happens just because I'm an unoffical aunt but then I don't want to just because it'll be a little weird considering we're not as close as we once were and I still don't know what to think of her boyfriend but I guess as long as she's happy I don't have too much to say on the matter. Oh well....
I'm so excited right now. I'm in the middle of a new project. I know, I know I should really finish one of my old stories before I begin a new one but since I know I can't finish one it doesn't bug me as much as it used to. Either way though this project will be super exciting for as long as I'm working on it. It's something of a conspiracy theory, taking a look at the social ladder and I hope it's turns out as good as the story I keep seeing in my head but I have long since found that the stories I have in my head and the ones I write are a lot different from each other. Oh well we work with what we got.
Sha! By the way... Dusty I glompz you. *glomps*

Heyla

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 02:54:07 GMT

Ok so I'd have been on a lot sooner except for a little problem I've come across and that is my school has recently blocked this website. So far I've managed to get around the block to see other peoples pages at least to see what's going on with some of my friends like mah Dusty! But the moment I get into the login it blocks me out so I'll either have to find someway to handle this or I'll be on a lot less then I planned. But yeah....
Hm.... well not a lot has been going on lately. I've been busy working, doing school (I graduate this year) and our pops concert that's happening this week. Plus I have forensics this weekend and I haven't worked on it in awhile... whoops?
I've been working on my fanfiction stories except I've come across a small problem... I uh.. don't know what to do with them. Actually I'm thinking of taking them down, my longer ones and just tossing them and re-writing something else but I don't know. I still have to think on it. I've also been busy with my own private project which isn't going too well lately, I had to put it on the back burner for a little bit so I didn't get too big of a headache forcing myself to work on it. So as of right now I'm just working on small projects, nothing very grand, just short stories that I can complete and be like "hey!" I actually finished a story!! Sorry, lol. But that's really why I enjoy doing one-shots, they're easy to complete. One chapter, beginning, middle, end. Voila!
And sometimes, as was the case for my one, you can do a sequel to it and have a second chapter, beginning middle, end. Voila! And now you don't need to work on anything else and just stop right there. Don't go any further then that. Why? Because I personally hate it when people don't know when to stop. It seems to get repetitive after awhile like... (no offense seriously) DragonBall. Ok I like the show well enough and all but I mean seriously how many times can you die, come back to life and save the day, Die, come back to life and save the day? I mean come on. Like I said no offense.
Hmm.... now that I've fallen onto the topic of anime let me tell you that Loveless is the coolest anime ever. I love it and I'm beginning to wonder how I've made it as far as I have without it. Seriously! The art is beautiful and the story is intriguing. I can't wait for the next dvd as well as the manga book. It's so neat. *sighs then frowns*
Ok last thing I swear.... I watched FMA last night. I know stop your groaning but I am really attached to the series ok? Anywho second to the last episode was on last night right? From the time the episode started until the end credits I sat on the edge of my couch staring. (I don't think I blinked at all!) After it ended I just sat there for a moment, mouth opening and closing like a fish before I started to yell and swear at the t.v. Yes you heard me right. I yelled at the t.v. I was so mad at it. How could they leave me like that? How could they? It was so unfair. My rants went from yelling profanities to wondering how I could fastforward time so I could see that final episode. Yes you heard me correctly if all my info. is correct the final episode is next week but the way they ended this one could have finished it if they just added a little more but then it wouldn't have allowed for a movie so I am truly happy that they didn't end it right there. Anywho... the point is while I love FMA it's so frustrating and a lot of the stuff they say makes me mad becuase it's a lot of stuff I thought of before or listened to one of my friends tell me about and then I just sat there like OMG! Please don't confirm my thoughts or my life will get worse. I mean there's so much to think about and then it's like they're helping to prove my theory and I'm just like oh no stop there.
LOL. It's amusing sorry. I'll save you from my stupidity from here and let you go.

Wow!

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 01:35:09 GMT

Ok, so my last journal was about this that and other things... Well that's very vague and besides the point but I think that I did mention that I was reading this manga called Alice 19th and if I hadn't well I was reading and I am now the proud owner of the complete series. It's a fantastic series if you're looking for something to read. Yu Watase is a fricken genius when it comes to manga. Seriously she's fantastic. My next personal favorite would have to be Kaori Yuki the creator of the beautiful series Angel Sanctuary and Godchild and I do mean beautiful. Her art is just the coolest ever.
Anywho I just wanted to say one thing and that is the moment anyone out there has the chance to see the Final Fantasy Advent Children movie take it. It is the coolest movie ever and I mean the coolest. You will never look at graphics the same way and you don't have to know a hell lot about the game to appreciate the movie (although it helps to know a little of the background history or watch it with a friend who can fill you in on some stuff) I would like to take this time and shout out to my friend who gave me the chance to see this movie. Thank you Fly I luv ya a lot lol. Ok that's all now. TTYL

And then...

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 14:21:15 GMT

Ok so this last weekend here I had drill and I'm still a little sore but not overly bad. It's basically the bruises on my knees and elbows that I got from crawling which hurt a little. Man I love drill though, last month I wasn't able to go at all because I ended up doing something to my rib and the Sergeant pretty much told me to stay home because I couldn't do anything anyway. I was really excited when I got to go this weekend then. I'm easy to please I guess.
I'm also really happy because I started reading this manga series that I picked up recently, Alice 19th. Right now I only got the first three books but it's really awesome I think, and I only have four more books to go. Yay! I also just got Chobits from my friend Khyie and the rest of Gravitation. Thank you so much I love you.... lol I've been wanting to finish those two series for awhile now so I'm extremely happy about that. God I love manga. Anywho yea... beyond all this there is not a single interesting thing going on in my life right now so I'll leave this all right here for now as it is and maybe get in another update soon about some other things I wanted to talk about...
Oh wait! I have one last announcement. Inuyasha was brought back to Adult Swim. YAY!!! I'm so happy. I was scanning the t.v. guide last night and spotted it and started getting all hyper and my sister pretty mcuh told me I was very strange and needed to be given a tranquilizer gun or something of the sort... yea. Ok then. Now I'm done this time I swear.

Hell hath no fury like a women's anger

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 18:40:34 GMT

Ok, so I watched FMA last weekend and after watching it my expression was something similar to this O.o... yea that was pretty bad. After I got over that though I started to yell and swear at the t.v. once again that was pretty bad. I mean I love FMA but this episode was off the whack. It was so messed up and now I have to miss this weeks episode and I'm freaking out cause I want to know what happens next. I mean seriously that little twist they just pulled was enough to make me wish i could fast-forward time so I could watch it right away.
I told this to my sister and she was all like yea i'll tape it for you...not sucker. XD that hurts man it really stings. But she's like I'll watch it for you and tell you it's really good :P she really sux. But that's besides the point if I didn't have drill this weekend I'd be so over watching it....Damn you drill! *shakes fist into the air*
So yea that's my rant for the day and look i got an update in all at the same time Yay!.... ok now i'll leave you all with your insanity intacts

Heyla

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 03:12:55 GMT

I'm still alive, sorry for some of you that were hoping otherwise..... So anyway for this week and the last month I've been very busy at school between taking care of my yearbook pages, and then I had my ten page paper for my college prep class... I still wasn't satisified with that thing when I turned it in and I think I edited it like eight times.
That's not the real reason why I decided to update my journal, to complain, though. I went into town to pick up my new glasses tonight and as I was going through I decided to stop at the local comic shop because they get some of the manga series that I collect so I was curious to see what I hadn't yet gotten for my series and what else looked interesting. While I was there I got PhD-5, Kenshin-22, Cross-5, and a newer book done by the creators of one of my favorite series Diablo. Anywho as I was skimming through it at the back they always have pages full with newer stuff that's coming out and low and behold what's on the back but LOVELESS! I think I screamed like a little school girl....oh wait I am a school girl lol, actually a senior but that's not the point. I'm so excited, I can't wait to get my hands on it and start collecting. It'll be the coolest thing ever.
Also for any of my fanfiction followers I haven't forgotten you. I'm updating several of my stories which means everything else will be on hold for awhile longer until I'm a bit more satisfied with my work because I know I'll never be completely satisfied. Please be a little bit more patient with me and I promise to have something new out soon even if it's my surprise story that I'm working on I will have something out.
As it is I think that's about all the news and things I have to say for now. Look for me soon. XD

Here we are again

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 15:32:11 GMT

O.K so here I am sitting in my computer class for the next two and a half hours because of the messed up hours at my school with all the testing that's going on. So what am I doing??? Well I'm reaquanting myself with my online manga sites and all the comics as well as checking up on scholarships and trying to find out what's been going on with my friends. Now what I really should be doing is my homework because I have to break down one of my essays by each sentence and list what kind of sentence it is. Sounds like fun huh??? Not really but I try to pretend that it is so I can get through it but I just don't have the motivation to work on it right now. It's only due tom. lol XD I'm so doomed. And I still have to go into town tonight to do some shopping and get some stuff picked up and I still have my spanish club party too... school life is evil.
If this is how life is right now I'm afraid to find out what college is going to be like. *sigh* It'll probably end up killing me. *bangs head repeatedly on wall* I don't want to grow up. I think i'm gonna fail all my classes so I can't pass out of high school, this way no college will ever want me. I'll never grow up lol... I always did like Peter Pan cuz he never grows up. THat's how I wanna be. It'd be cool but alas life is cruel and we all must grow and age and well overall it sux. *sigh* I'm done rambling for now I'm still taking care of some stuff that I deem important and necessary to get done but I felt like writing in here seeing as how I hardly ever do it. Anywho TTYL

This one time....

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 03:42:37 GMT

Mauh! I'm so bad at this updating thing... really I am. It makes me a horrible person sometimes. Well what can I say? I've been busy with school... still. It's horrible let me tell you. I have this class called Co-op and there is only four people in it. FOUR!!! So between us four people we have to plan things like rose sales, college night, teaching a powerpoint class and what not. It's gonna kill me. I'm sure of it. *Sigh* If only I could be so lucky. So anywho my life is made up of school, work, school, work and school. Sad huh?
The only thing to look forward to is my friend coming over this weekend to watch some movies with me. Lol. It's so sad. Maybe we'll even go to the movies. I want to see that Jarhead that is coming out this Friday. It looks kickass.
I went running tonight for like the first time in like two months. OMG! I can tell I haven't done it in a while. I hurt so bad. I mean I've been keeping up with everything else but the running. I'm thinking I should pick back up on it seeing as how I'm one of the worse runners within my group at Drill. That's really sad seriously. I come in last all the time. I want to at least beat one person. It would boost my ego which is rather deflated lately.
I was trying to work on some of my writings but I've been failing miserably when it comes to that. I'm absolutely pathetic when it comes to finishing a writing project. I still have like four stories on my fanfiction that need finishing and I'm no where near doing that. I'm thinking of going back and re-writing a bunch of them. They're kinda bad now that I look at them. I mean the first chapters were pretty damn good if I say so myself but after that I started slipping so I want to fix that. It'll take me some time but i'll get it done soon enough. Go me!! Anywho as it is I still have other things I want to check out. I also don't have a working computer at home just so you know except for the one in my parents room, we're still working on the other one. We finally got it back now we just got to get the internet on it and running. Wish me luck and I'll be on more often.
XD

This one time...

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 04:57:27 GMT

Ok so I haven't been on much.. why? Because I still don't have a working computer and while I'd go on at school to update I don't have enough time between doing my homework and making plans for college night at my school. There is one bad thing about having a very small class (of four if you can believe it)that has to plan things like college night and other fund raisers. It kinda sucks after awhile. So much to do and so little man power. *sigh* Anywho I've been working a little on my stories, not getting to far, but I've been working on it and I'll try to update as soon as I can. I feel really bad that I haven't updated my fanfiction in a long time. Many apologies.
As it is I still have a lot of other things to catch up on and I don't know when my computer will be fixed up so once again I'm really sorry and keep checking back to see if I'm back online or not. Later.

"Happiness can subside, but frustration never
lets go"

You have been awfully mistreated in your life by
your fellow peers and/or family, and feel a
growing frustration towards your life and your
inability to do anything about it. Since no one
has ever really been there for you, you bottle
most things inside. And that is quite a lot of
pain bottled up too. Deep inside you yearn for
many things; feelings for affinity, for the
world to improve, for people to stop being
judgemental amongst other things. Yet your hope
in improvement is very low, and believe you
only have the power over yourself. When you are
in larger crowds you tend to get irritated by
the prescence of others, so you keep to
yourself. Those who know you are probably aware
of the hate you carry, but you rarely do
anything about it.

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Wed, 31 Aug 2005 17:37:10 GMT

Heyla. Everything is going just fine over here. I've managed to make contact with Fly recently and got a bunch of new manga to read *clutches pile to self smiling happily* The bad news is I haven't had contact with Flea in close to two weeks now and I'm getting worried. We are never really out of touch for that long. Maybe I should take some initiative and try calling her again but nobody answers the damn phone. What am I supposed to do?
Ok *breaths deeply* I must calm down. Anywho I work a lot this week so it might be awhile before you hear from me again. So send me messages and stuff. It makes me happy. Oh yeah and if your from fanfiction if you don't leave a message I won't post anytime soon so nah :P anywho i got to go so ttyl

You are a Ninja.
You are like a samurai gone bad. The good side
is no longer interesting you and feel that
darkness is where you belong. Though you may
think you are the evil one, you're not. Because
deep inside there is still that little glimpse
of who you once were. You don't like to
associate with people that much and keep away.
In your mind they are ignorant and not so
interesting anyway. That means you are a lonley
person who don't trust people, and you have
really no desire to do so either. Life is a big
pain and annoyance for you and you aren't quite
sure on how to handle it. Other people see you
as mysterious and secretive, and that is
probably right.

Main weapon: Daggers and throwing
stars
Quote: "I hate people. People make
me pro-nuclear" -Margaret Smith
Facial expression: Frown

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Mon, 29 Aug 2005 17:41:01 GMT

Heyla, I'm back but not necessarily in one piece. I've been busy and just so ya know I still don't have a working computer. *sigh* My only updates will be through school for now or at the library as I can.
Well now lets see what is new.... well first off I had my first drill, and let me tell you it's not easy in the least. I completely flopped on two of the pt tests. It really sux. *breathes* I only passed one. ONE OF THREE!!!! I'm so stupid. GRRRR!!!!
I hurt really really really bad and I have another one in two weeks time. So once again I'll be in a world of hurt. I'm sick as of right now, and still have to work tonight. Fun... yea right.
I've been back in school since Aug. 24 and I'm in my final year. *Hip hip hooray* Other than that my lifes been a complete bore with nothing going on. So I'm going to send myself off with a heyla to Dusty and a bye-bye to him as well. Just cuz I can and he's my friend. So other than that talk to yall later.

You are Joanna Dark also known as Perfect Dark. You
got your nickname because you are just all
around perfect. Your fast, witty, have great
aim, and look good. Just be careful, you tend
to do dangerous stuff especially since its your
job. Try not to get hurt.

Which Cool Video Game Character are you?
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Away at Business World

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 17:43:31 GMT

Heyla all...
I've been kinda busy as of late so that's my reasoning behind not updating... yea that's it i've been busy... so Dusty what's your excuse??? LOL. NVM. Anywho I'm away at this moment at this thing called Business World and will be here until 3:00 p.m. on Wednesday so if anyone is looking to contact me wait up until then.... I still have to get ahold of Flea. Yea anyway this Business world thing is in LaCrosse, WI about an hour away from my hometown and I've been here since Sunday afternoon thereabouts. I orignally came with a friend of mine but she has ditched me to go back home cause this isn't her kind of thing as she put it but she did promise to pick me up on Wednesday so let's all cross our figners and hope that she really does return to pick me up. Otherwise I'll need to hitch hike and let my parents know that we are no longer together and that could cause some problems i'm sure.... hehe let's not do that ne? Yep overall everything is pretty good here although i think i might prefer to working then being here, at least i'd be getting paid for all my time spent away before i leave again on the 27th. Yes I'm leaving on the 27th to Florida and returning the 30th only to leave the next day to Oshkosh for one day. Hehe go me. Never be home that's my motto... well not really but yea whatever anywho i have to be going cause our bus for our little 'field trip' will be coming soon and i'd hate to be left behind *grins evilly* anywho I'll tty all laterz.
Oh by the way this is for you Dusty... *glompz* Hehe write me or something kk?? Byez

Squee I'm so happy!!!

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 04:53:46 GMT

Tom. is my b-day and while I'm looking forward to it I'm not at the same time. I have to work which is definitely going to kill me. The night shift. 2-11. Mah! Anywho yea I turn 17 and now that means I have to sit down and actually think about what I'm going to do with my future seeing as how I graduate from school this year and have no friggen clue. *mumbles to self about being bad about making decisions*
Anywho yea... isn't it perty???? lol

You are Kurama and Kagome! The reason why this site and quiz exists! Many of the reasons given by the fans of
why they like Kurama and Kagome are all the same, but if you think for a long time, there are things they have in common!
Even though this is only a crossover pairing, it doesn't mean it isn't an ideal relationship.

When you find your dream guy, be sure to never let him go. That goes the same for dream girls. The thing that
makes your special person happy is opening up. If they learn more about you, the more they love you. After they learned more,
they know what it is they need to do to make you happy.

You should know by heart who it is you want to be with, so if you are just happiest when you are with someone, and only them,
open up and good things will happen.

I need help... lots of help

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 03:53:57 GMT

Squee! I'm so happy lol I was trying to do some writing this morning and then I got bored so then I found my self sketching and I drew this bird... thing... lol I wasn't realy sure what to make out of it but after working on it a little more it became quite good... at least in my opinion and by the time I was done it came to me that it was a Phoenix and for no reason that I know of I drew a tear in the corner of the eye. Looking at it, the picture inspired me to work on a story that I put away in the storage closet awhile back and I got a page done after I was done adding stuff to it lol. I'm thinking of bringing the story back to life possibly. Anway I wanted to put a small snippet of it in here. Please note that these are my characters from my story that I really do plan on finishing one of these days and trying to post. I'd appreciate it if you would please not take anything from this from me at all.

     Xanith stared at the creature before her in amazement. It was encased infire, and the feathers were a burning red shade. She, because such a beautiful thing couldn’t be anything else but a she, had a wingspan of about four feet, her tail feathers were held up high behind her to keep from being dragged in the ground, and their was intelligence in her fiery eyes. “Tell me,” she began in honest awe. “What manner of creature are you?”
     The bird turned her head on her long swan like neck to regard Xanith with something akin to curiosity. Her ash gray beak parted as though she were going to answer when she suddenly threw her head back emitting an eerie cry from the back of her throat.
     Xanith stumbled back in surprise as the fire began to grow to a further intensity. The bird let out another cry this one echoing her confusion and fear, a crystalline blue tear fell from her eyes before she was consumed in the fire.
     “No,” Xanith protested weakly looking at the spot where the bird had just sat to see nothing but ashes which were still burning. “What was that?”
     She stayed where she was at, still looking at the ashes with a feeling of loss barely taking notice of the sun raising behind her in its glory. She just sat lost in confusion staring at the ashes when out of nowhere the fire suddenly extinguished itself and the ashes were sent flying in all directions as something pushed itself up in the middle where the pile once stood.
     Xanith’s eyes widened as a small ugly red bundle spread small, frail wings and tilted its large head back letting out a familiar eerie cry. The bird wobbling on weak legs began to run, awkwardly flapping its wings as it lifted up into the sky bursting into a huge flame of red soaring away. Around her the wildlife came back to life as birds began to send out their songs and call out to one another and bugs buzzed about.
      Xanith smiled faintly as she realized what she had just witnessed. The life and rebirth of a phoenix. The messengers of the beginning and end of life.

While I'm at it I was on quizilla again taking some more quizzes and I feel like sharing them

Brave, strong willed, loyal and passionate
You are a sprite of Fire. Full of passion, bravery
and spice you are the living embodiment of
fire. You are quite arrogant and think yourself
above most but that is made up for by; your
passionate ability to pursue your dreams, your
strong will and your powerful well skilled
ability for fighting. You are a natural leader,
people are somewhat drawn to you and see you as
someone to look up to but you only pay
attention to them if they are useful, your
equal or your superior. You are a very exciting
person to be near for you have a vast love of
adventure and battle. Fire is a symbol of
Passion if and when you choose to love you are
capable of beautiful, long lasting, devoted
love. You are quite wondrous!

.::=What type of Mythical Sprite are you?=::. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Sadly this one has no pictures but it had to do with vampires so i couldn't ignore it

You are exactically like me! You could be a vampire
with your eye closed. The thought of drinking
blood doesn't make you skwimish, and you get
upset easily when reminded that vampires aren't
real. You are a true vampire deep within.

Could you be a vampire?
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Squee! I luv this picture lol it's so cool

You are a dark girl. You have a really quiet and
really a i dont' care attitude. You like to be
alone and that is what you enjoy. You don't
like to be around others and you'd rather be
away from here. You have a get away from me
look and others find you bitchy and
self-rigious. You'd rather read than be at a
fair but that's ok because that's who you are.

Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
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Well I guess that is all for now... hmmm.... I need sugar now... *skips away*